Is it just me, or do you feel better when all your family is under one roof? I love the fact that Emma and Audrey can go off and have adventures with friends or grandparents, but it just doesn't feel as "right" to me as when they are all here at home. It is when I am at the most peace.
The funny thing is I will be sitting somewhere or getting ready to go to bed and I will feel this need just to see them or give them a hug and I will get up and seek them out and give them a hug or a kiss and tell them that I love them, just for no reason other than that they are mine and I adore them. Then I can go back to whatever it was that I was doing with a greater sense of peace.
I don't want to be a smothering parent. And I would never want to stand between them and an adventure but I have to fight the tendency to keep them close just because it makes me feel better. I want them to have relationships and full lives. Along those lines, I wish we could be the house that all the kids want to hang out at. I love it when the girls have friends over. Of course being in the area of town that we are in their friends have some pretty cool houses with home theaters, TV, and every gaming system, etc. so it's hard to compete with that! But still, I would love to make space for kids to come hang out. We don't even have TV so that could be a challenge!
It is going to be a real shock to the system to have them back at school in the next few weeks. It'll be good to move into that season, but the days will definitely take on a different flavor. I will miss those two! Of course their are adventures to be had in the next couple of weeks so that they can build a few more great memories before this summer passes.
As I am writing this I wonder if some of my thoughts and behaviors stem from the fact that the girls and Joanne were home without me when Jo had her stroke? I wasn't here. Maybe I am thinking that if we are all together then nothing bad can happen. Hmmmm. Of course that is wrong headed thinking and could definitely lead to a little smothering behavior. Gotta work on that...