Happy New Year. 2012 is really here despite my fear of turning the page on the calendar only to find out that it was still 2011. We had a good Christmas, different but good none the less. Nana and the girls decorated the house for me which is one of my all time favorite Christmas things to do. I'm already brainstorming ideas for next year.
One of the biggest changes was that we did not give any gifts this year. I usually make all the gifts we give but my workshop in the basement has been out of reach for me and it's hard to sew with only one working hand. Instead we gave family members imaginary presents. For example, Audrey received an imaginary puppy. For Emma, we imaginary knocked out the wall between her room and the guest room to expand her space into a suite of rooms. She's very excited and doesn't seem to understand the imaginary part. We sent Joanne's folks to Wale's for a month this summer to stay in a B&B and hike along the coast. I gave Toben and AR15 and tactical training. Toben gave me 100% healing. My sister received welding lessons and a metal and woodworking shop. Wade received snowmobiles for their mountain house. It seemed like a good idea to give these imaginary gifts but in actuality it felt sort of lame.
We spent the whole day at Gran and Papa's the day after Christmas and had our traditin Christmas meal. Christmas Eve was spent with Nana and Papa and Beth in the Springs. For New Years I tried desperately to stay up until midnight but could not do it. I had some very specific and not so nice things to say to 2011 in closing but mostly I am just glad that 2012 is here.
AS we enter the new year, we are looking for a new routine yet again. I am still doing PT with Dililah every week. She comes to the house and we work on leg strength, balance, stretching and such. Erika is our PT. She comes to work on my left arm. Tracy was my ST but I have been discharged from speech therapy for now. I still try to read out loud every day and talk on the phone more. Fridays are still my best day with Brooke, my massage therapist. With all the therapy that I have done, massage has been the most helpful. I love Brooke dearly.
The girls are back in school and doing fairly well. Though I have to say I felt bad sending them back to school with only imaginary gifts to talk about. " I got an imaginary dog. How lame is that!" Maybe next Christmas...
We are starting family counseling later this month just to talk about how the four of us could use some processing time to figure out how to come to peace with this last year. Small world...the man we will see was my clinical psychologist from rehab at Spalding se we already know him.
No more cast!!! I got the red cast cut off on Tuesday and even though my chart said to recast it, my doctor listened to my begging and put me in a walking boot so I am on my feel again. The best thing is that I am able to take a real shower again. I have a special boot that I have to wear at night that is very uncomfortable and has kept me from sleeping well.
Toben is still at the top of my thankful list--my hero, champion and best friend. He takes care of me with gentleness, patience and understanding. My parents are still a big part of "team Joanne" and are here every day to help with exercises, grocery shopping, meal planning and such. Papa's retirement has turned into another full time job...me! He and I practice one handed typing almost every day. We are making some progress but it is very difficult. I look forward to being able to tye my own posts in the future but for now Toben is my scribe.
I feel like I am in fairly good spirits lately. The meds I am on seem to be working as they are supposed to. All in all I am weary...we are weary. I hope 2012 brings our family a much needed vacation and some rest. Hint, hint to anyone who owns a home in Hawaii :)
That's all I can think of off the top of my head. Toben is taking me out to lunch to get me out of the house today. I took a great shower this morning so I have on a cute outfit, make up and earrings so we need to go live it up!
Continued endurance and perseverance. With the one year strokeaversary coming up it is amazing to look back and see how far we've come and how much we've been through.