Have to tell you, I honestly thought that I wasn't. Insecure that is. For the most part, I thought I was confident, secure, way past insecurity. Ha!
My first night of teaching Bible study a couple of weeks ago ended with being slapped upside the head by insecurity. I was shocked, stunned, surprised. Where the heck did that come from? I wondered. Maybe I should pick up Beth's new book after all, I thought.
And then to combat my whole antiperspirant/deoderant conundrum, I actually wore three different kinds to Bible study last Wednesday. Yep, you read it right. Three kinds. If one is good, three must be really good. (And I did admit it to the gals there in an effort to keep it real.)
My sweet dad talked to Toben the other day and was concerned to know if it worked. And said he hoped I didn't break out in a rash from mixing them all together. (It did work, and no, I didn't get a rash--though I'm backing off and going with just one kind from here on out.)
Incidentally, my friend Christy prayed specifically for dry armpits. (The Bible says to pray with all kinds of prayers and requests. So why not?) Then commented that it was her prayer and not the three kinds of antiperspirant that prevailed. Another woman was walking by at the time and told me that if I really wanted to prove my faith, this week I'd come without any. Hmmm...yes, we are called to faith. But we're also to be wise. So I'll back off of using three, but stick with using one.
Anyway. Where was I?
Maybe I should pick up Beth's new book after all, I thought.
So I did. And I just finished it this morning. And I will tell you my copy is underlined, starred, scribbled in. The margins are filled with stuff like, "Really, Lord?" as he revealed things to me about myself. Things like, "Applicable much?!" as I read something Beth wrote that could have come from my own pen. Things like, "Help, Lord!" as something hit me square between the eyes.
I'm guessing that many of you have already read it and are benefitting from all you learned. You're getting dressed in strength and dignity each and every morning. Some of you have the book, but haven't started it. (Ahem, you know you who are! Won't mention her name, cause I don't want to fuel any insecurity there and anyway, she knows how much I adore her and that I'm only teasing!)
But, if you don't have it, GO GET IT. (Yes, the library is great, but this is a book you need to write in. You'll want your own copy. I promise.) Even if you don't think you struggle with insecurity that much. Because I'm betting you'll see more reflections of yourself as you read than you'd expect.
Even a little insecurity is too much.