But I wanted to say hello to you! So I'll type as fast as I possibly can while eating the last few bites of my cottage cheese and berries. (I'm in a new breakfast rut. No more Cheerios and strawberry yogurt, these days it's cottage cheese and frozen blueberries.)
I think the comments are fixed. Note to self, double check the spam folder later today!
I'm off to have coffee with a BFF in an hour, then to church to spend the day writing. I'm feeling a little scattered--I'm doing my week 3 homework along with everyone else, preparing to teach for week 4, and writing the homework for week 5. It's a wonder I ever know where I am. Somewhere between paths of righteousness, the valley of the shadow of death, and learning what it means to be anointed. But I love it.
I love it. Even when God tells me to teach a lesson that's got my name all over it on self-sufficiency and dependency that requires me to share some ugly things about myself up front and in person. Wednesday night was HARD. Yesterday morning was better after having done it once and receiving some encouragement, but both days still felt like getting on stage and stripping off my clothes as I admitted my pride, my love affair with self-sufficiency, my total obsession with my self. Lord, have mercy and change me, I pray.
But here's the thing. We need each other. We need to hear each other's stories of victory because of God's work in our lives. But we also need to hear each other's stories of struggle and failure. We need to know we're not the only ones.
It's so appealing to pretend that we have it all together. And even in the midst of trying to live authentically and with transparency, sometimes others still get the idea that we have it all together when it's the farthest thing from the truth.
No, we don't need to go around with a sign on our foreheads declaring "I'm a mess!", but when God prompts us to share the hard truth about ourselves, we need to. He has a reason for it. Someone needs to hear it.
Does someone need to hear a not so pretty part of your story today?
Alright. Time for the shower now. Gonna go with yesterday's "yesterday hair" and hope for the best, but my legs definitely need to be shaved so I gotta run. I love you dearly.