Okay, it must be real because there's now a category button for "Moving to Phoenix"
I didn't really stop to think much before I let the cat out of the bag. But I think I did because it just doesn't seem quite real. I keep waiting to wake up or for Toben to call me and say, "Just kidding."
Telling people makes it real.
Thank you for all your kind words and prayers and encouragement--both here and on Facebook. It means the world to me to know you guys are praying. I have some specific things I'd love for you to pray for, but I'll get to those in a minute.
We've been praying for God to provide some new income for a while now--about six months. Not to buy more toys or go on fun vacations, but to pay the bills and pay back some debt. As I've prayed, I've really tried to ask rather than prescribe.
Does that make sense? So often, I pray for what I want--and exactly how I want it to happen. So this has been a prayer adventure of praying with my hands open, asking God to help me trust him, to keep my hands open to receive whatever he gives.
(And I have to say that I kinda hoped by having such a good attitude about it he'd go ahead and answer my prayer in the way I really wanted, which he knows already even though I didn't pray about it--because he's my God and knows my heart. But he didn't.)
I was telling a friend yesterday that it's much easier to tell a friend that God knows best, that we need to follow where he leads, that we need to accept what he gives with thanksgiving than to actually do it yourself!
Toben will be working with some great people on a new ministry. I'll let him blog about it soon and then link to it so you can get the whole picture from him. Let's just say that it's very, very cool and I'm excited for him. And excited to see if God has a place for me to contribute to it too.
If it's up and running smoothly in a year, then it'll be feasible for Toben to run it from a remote location and we can come back to Denver. Or we may decide as a family to stay there. I just don't know. No one knows, but God. And for a planner, that's hard. One day at a time. (See how God's been working on me with that little bit of wisdom for the past month already to prepare me some for this?)
What about seminary? That's something you've asked. Me too! I told Toben that I feel like someone has handed me this incredible gift this past semester and now it's being taken away. I can take online classes; I think I could even take some classes at Phoenix Seminary (though they do not offer my degree). However, being in the classroom is what I'm loving about school. I'm not going just to get a degree, but to sit in the classroom and learn.
This morning, I'm thinking about not going to school in the fall and then maybe taking Hebrew or Greek in the spring. But I just don't know. I need to talk to someone at Denver Sem and find out what they recommend.
It may be that I just need to be with my family. Or work alongside Toben on this ministry. Or teach Sunday school. Or go to Bible study. Or write a novel. Or just rest. I don't know. One day at a time!
A couple of details you may be wondering about...
We're not selling our house. We're not moving any furniture. This new company will rent a furnished house for us in Phoenix for the next year.
We have friends in Phoenix. Good friends and friends we're excited to get to know better. Friends with kids my kids know and love. So we're not going someplace unknown.
We even have a school for the girls if we decide to do that. We're even talking about (gulp!) homeschooling as a possibility for a year. Though I want the girls to make friends and school is a good way to do that. Who knows? We're looking at this year as an adventure--a chance to relook at all kinds of things.
How can you pray?
One day at a time! I get easily overwhelmed by the big picture and need to focus on the things that need to be done in the next three or so weeks.
Wisdom. For school for the girls, for school for me.
Details. House hunting, packing, all those things that take time and phone calls.
Audrey and Emma. They're excited (it's an adventure!) but sad too. They'll go to school this morning and tell friends they're moving for a year. That's always hard.
That's it for now. Gotta get ready for school. Love you all.
P.S. The cool thing is that my computer is obviously going with me--so that means all of you are coming to Phoenix too!